You...?

It's like a drop 2 fingers bellow your belly button,
it's like water running through your spine.
It's that feeling when light is in your heart and fire is lit a part.
It's burning it's turning,it's flowing it's happening...It's working,it's smiling.
It's a wire sound ,it's a vibration rather,
it's way beyond my power.
Sense and cover, try and draw this feeling ,thats flowing through,
this water thats running through,this thing that makes me mad...
This lesson to comprehend,I'm kneeling and my power is weak,
I'm smiling and my heart is knowing,the sword that makes me cry...
That linnen between my fingers it's grinding, like oil it's sliding...
I'm tired,I'm done ...but I still think that I don't care...I know you are aware
So how should I say?how should I do?
Is it everytime like this?because I really need you!